I wish…

…I was this photogenic.

Random.

I am sad that I haven’t been able to update our family blog as often as I’d like – but I love that it’s because we’ve been too busy enjoying summer life!

The first days of the week were spent in 100+ degree weather – typical Minnesota, we went from 50/60 and rainy right on up to 100. But I can’t complain, being able to walk barefoot in shorts and not even thinking about a jacket is perfect! Then today we woke up to weather in the upper 50s – a forty degree difference in two days, welcome to the Midwest! To survive the heat, we pulled out the slip n’ slide & sprinkler, and the wading pool once the daycare kids left – but honestly, the majority of it was spent indoors in the air conditioning! Gavin can easily get dehydrated, so we’re very cautious in overwhelming heat!

Gavin has been such a blast this summer. He really is a preschooler now, and extremely independent (hmm, wonder where he gets that from). He’s counting, singing the alphabet, starting to spell (I know right!), and has decided he likes to beat box – seriously the cutest/funniest thing ever. When he hears a song he’s familiar with, he attempts to sing along. We do sing nursery rhymes and such around here – but it cracks me up that he’s more familiar with the music Casey and I listen to on a normal basis – he loves him some Kings of Leon! He also loves to dance and attempts to “perform” along with the performers on Dancing with the Stars and So You Think You Can Dance. He is constantly saying things that crack Casey and me up – like the other night at dinner when out of the blue he told us that he “never wants to grow tall like Mama & Daddy , I wanna be little forever!” – I wish that too buddy!

Today marks the one month countdown to our wedding. I sometimes freak out about getting things done, but then remind myself that 90% of it is done. Little details here and there need to be looked after, but the big stuff is ready to go! After a lifetime of wondering who I’ll marry, what it will look like, how old I’ll be etc. It’s crazy to think that the day is almost here, and that in a blink of an eye it will be over!

Last weekend I attended my 10 year high school reunion – it was fun, but a bit surreal. Pretty much everyone looks the same – if not better – and I love that our graduating class didn’t deal with all the bullying you hear about now. Sure, we had cliques – but it wasn’t as if you were in one clique and those were your only friends – we had a class of social butterflies. The majority of us got along and were friendly with each other, and that was exactly how Saturday evening turned out.

This week I have been busy sorting, organizing and getting rid of junk! And it feels fantastic! Nothing like extended family coming into town for your wedding to get you to actually get those home projects complete!

He has started to realize that he’s “different.”

And it sucks.

This morning he asked me why the other kids don’t have vests. And cried when I sat everyone down this morning for his treatment time. He yelled, “I am MAD at my vest!”

Ugh. It was all I could do not to break down.

This is just another aspect that we’ll have to work through. He knows he has Cystic Fibrosis, but it’s just starting to occur to him that not everyone else does – well at least that his other little daycare friends don’t have it. That they don’t have to wear a vest. That they don’t have to use a nebulizer. That they don’t have to take pills every time they eat.

Beyond his daily treatments, he is just like every other kid – healthier than most other typical two year olds I know. And as hard as we put our emphasis on the “normal stuff,” the abnormal parts of his life are becoming more apparent to him.

The hardest part is having a kid smart enough to realize that he’s different, but not yet able to comprehend the whys or hows. But heck, neither do I half the time.